So tired, yet so awake

I just finished a two night stretch of working. This isn't a big deal on a normal day, but being 37 weeks pregnant and up all night two nights in a row is not normal...for me anyway. I feel so weird now. Last night I felt ill...literally, sick to my stomach, but didn't sleep that well today. When Mark got home, he said, "Wow, I am glad to see you. So glad that you are home now." I half-smiled, then said, "I'm going to bed. So much for seeing me." Then I cried myself to sleep because I felt so sick. That was at 5:30 pm. I slept until 7:30 pm, ate a bit, made cookies (I have NO idea why), visited with Mark and the boys, did some laundry, gave the boys a bath, rocked Liam to sleep, said good-night to Mark, then realized...there is no way I am going to be able to go back to sleep.

That's the way it is these days. I am so tired, yet so very much awake. Baby girl gets her groove on at night. I don't really blame her considering that day is night and night is day in our world. Won't THAT pattern be fun to break when she joins our world in the flesh?

I am feeling more a more like I am going to have a baby soon. More pressure, more cramping, and Braxton Hicks contractions are my constant companion...mostly at night. There is 18 days left until my due date...not that I am keeping count. Why is it that 18 days seems like nothing to some, and an eternity to others? Actually, I shouldn't say that. I really do feel pretty good minus all the night shift stuff.

So here I sit, by myself at 11:44pm. I want to sleep but know that I won't be able to...until the sun comes up.